Hi!
Its been 2 years (im not sure if this is even the right area to post this). But i think maybe it was a high time to put my apology out there, I am not doing this as a way to get a ban appeal, but rather underlying guilt that keeps my irritated over my actions. I am obviously guilty of my actions, that's why i never bothered to put up any post defending myself, cause i know, i was wrong and i was ashamed of myself.
1. I have to clearly apologise to Mel! I was rude to her, when i was caught, not because of any other reason but over the fact that i was angry at myself for being so stupid and taking things for granted (even at that moment). Mel I always told you i never believed age relates to maturity, and i do not know what came over to act like that way with you, you did not deserve it and i apologise for that. (Maybe i should have done this by dms, but i dont know if messaging you privately would go well, or rather i dont even have your discord id anymore)
2. To all the staff members, you trusted me, i broke that trust, we were friends and I heavily regret betraying that. I don't know why i did that tbh, maybe because after all the time, with all the privilege, I may have gotten bored and wanted to find ways to entertain myself. In Hindsight, i should have found the maturity to retire myself then and there, but then again I didn't want to leave a community so precious (ironic, i shot myself in the foot by doing otherwise)
3. to all the players, you didn't deserve it either, I kept monetising in game for no reason, Maybe because i just needed stuff to build so i thought of doing economical things.
To be honest before anyone confronted me about the abuse of CM, i had asked nether to reset everything for me, cause after a while i know i wanted to stop what i was doing, but it was too late by then.
I hope that sincere apology reaches everyones hearts. this took me alot of anxiety just to write
PS: There is one thing that still bugs me to this day, I did not appreciate frost commenting on my instagram work account accusing me of stealing money from kids online, as if i had access to any IRL money in a game where i was just a player off.
Its been 2 years (im not sure if this is even the right area to post this). But i think maybe it was a high time to put my apology out there, I am not doing this as a way to get a ban appeal, but rather underlying guilt that keeps my irritated over my actions. I am obviously guilty of my actions, that's why i never bothered to put up any post defending myself, cause i know, i was wrong and i was ashamed of myself.
1. I have to clearly apologise to Mel! I was rude to her, when i was caught, not because of any other reason but over the fact that i was angry at myself for being so stupid and taking things for granted (even at that moment). Mel I always told you i never believed age relates to maturity, and i do not know what came over to act like that way with you, you did not deserve it and i apologise for that. (Maybe i should have done this by dms, but i dont know if messaging you privately would go well, or rather i dont even have your discord id anymore)
2. To all the staff members, you trusted me, i broke that trust, we were friends and I heavily regret betraying that. I don't know why i did that tbh, maybe because after all the time, with all the privilege, I may have gotten bored and wanted to find ways to entertain myself. In Hindsight, i should have found the maturity to retire myself then and there, but then again I didn't want to leave a community so precious (ironic, i shot myself in the foot by doing otherwise)
3. to all the players, you didn't deserve it either, I kept monetising in game for no reason, Maybe because i just needed stuff to build so i thought of doing economical things.
To be honest before anyone confronted me about the abuse of CM, i had asked nether to reset everything for me, cause after a while i know i wanted to stop what i was doing, but it was too late by then.
I hope that sincere apology reaches everyones hearts. this took me alot of anxiety just to write
PS: There is one thing that still bugs me to this day, I did not appreciate frost commenting on my instagram work account accusing me of stealing money from kids online, as if i had access to any IRL money in a game where i was just a player off.
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