[Penguin]

So for those of you who didn't notice, I have been absent for about a month. Do not worry, i am not leaving. I decided to take a break from everything after some shit happened, and since the end of summer i have been trying to sort things out.

Last year i did my GCSEs, which are exams you take at 16. I was waiting for the results to find out whether i could go back to school, whether i would be allowed to take the subjects i wanted to do, and also some job applications at the time relied on these results. Over summer i got increasingly nervous.

On top of this I was having some big time girl issues. Basically, girl A thought i liked her, and got her friend girl B to talk to me over facebook. She wouldn't shut the fuck up, and kept dropping hints every other sentence. I didn't want to appear mean so i tried to have a normal conversation. I actually had an interest in girl C, who I went to a couple parties with and i have known for a while. At one such event, i actually spent the night with her (nothing dirty happened) and somehow word spread. I am pretty sure girl A was angry, while girl C told me she didn't know how she felt about me. Up until coming back to school, i basically had facebook turned off to avoid interactions.

At this point i was getting edgy, and after some other shit happened i decided to quit hometown. I gave my account to a friend who has now left my school, and I got on with school life.

Back at school, I thankfully got into the courses i wanted to do. I thought this would distract me, but in fact i began to fall behind on work. It got to the point where i got home from school and did homework relentlessly until going to bed at night. No time for hometown, planetside, reading books, or even practicing guitar. I started avoiding people at school because i didn't want to talk to them, until eventually i found out girl A now has a boyfriend! She was sure to remind me many times of this, to the point where i swear she approached me just to tell me she didn't care about me anymore.

Meanwhile it turns out the reason girl C was unsure of me was because she is also interested in another guy. She won't tell me who it is, but it is blatantly obvious that he knows who i am. She says that she wants to get to know me better and forget about the other guy, but i don't know how much of that is true, or whether she has told the other guy the exact same thing. She is a really nice person, and i would be very surprised if she lied to me, but I still have my suspicions.

Added onto this was the effect of several of my close friends leaving school, and the other shit i mentioned earlier. So sorry guys for not being here, and forgive me. I'll be back soon.