[Admok]

(08-16-2017, 11:15 AM)Saiyaka Wrote:

(08-16-2017, 04:04 AM)Admok Wrote: but I assure you that will never happen again.

This is like the billionth time that you've been warned for your behavior. Just because you don't get banned doesn't mean it isn't serious, and we've been patient with you over and over and over again. Why is it so hard for you to just be on good behavior? I don't have this issue, most other people don't have this issue. It's not that hard to think about what you say before you say it, and acting like a dick to everyone over a joke just crossed the line for me, the line which you keep on attempting to push periodically.

"[15:12:00] [main/INFO]: [CHAT]
[Experienced] NubAdu >> all i hear is WAAAAA"

This for me just clearly shows your intentions, and your childish state of mind when approaching other people and being social on ht. It's just so unnecessary for this kind of behavior to exist, but nothing has changed in the years that you've been here. Why should we believe that you're suddenly a changed person now? Why should we give you the 100001st undeserved chance?

From the last time I have been been banned I don't believe that I have actually recieved a warning. In fact I remember rarely even going online after I was unbanned. So as a matter of fact, I actually was just banned without a warning just now, though that may not be an excuse. 

Additionally, you have quoted only one part of my appeal which makes me feel that you didn't necessarily analyse the rest of it. As for that one quote from chat, you didnt seem to put any context behind and and thus made a analysis on a small bit of text in which I don't necessarily agree with. I believe the context behind that quote was that I was in an argument after the joke that I have told, which I then said to everyone else to seriously chill and that it was only a joke, but people carried on; i just said that all that is going on is that people are moaning over and over all because of a joke. Needless to say, the joke in question was a quote from a meme that I have found. It was a sexist joke. It was a joke with poor poor poor taste. I totally do not believe in that sort of ideology and that it was even wrong for me to say it. It was a joke too far. Though as that joke may be sexist and bad, the jokes that other people were telling at that time were completely transphobic, which I thought would be completely unacceptable too especially according to the philosophy this server upholds.

Also to point out that even before I got banned, I apologised several times in chat as well for the joke that I have made as it was in poor taste. I also apologised for the argument as well, but that wasn't quoted in your reply. 

"but nothing has changed in the years that you've been here. "

Here I really feel that I should point out something. How can you say that after YEARS I have just remained a dickhead and just terrorised the server like some mega troll. You haven't given me those millions of merciful warnings like you suggest. The first time I got banned was because of my constant attitude towards staff, which I have apologised accordingly and never made the same mistake again, except from the brief encounter with Rayvenz the other day. That is to say that I only had that attitude to staff, not to anyone else; with your message you seem to make it as though I just had a constant problem with everyone all the time.

Whenever i get into an argument I place my points with validation and when I get flamed in response I now stop the argument altogether, rather than before where i kept getting told to stop an argument. I guess being in an argument is a dickish action, im not sure, since there never seems to be any repercussions for the other adversary. 

It's also funny how it seems that I am the dickhead that only says truly damaging things and never contribute to anything to the server, yet all I got from this response to my ban appeal is flame, poor quoting and poor analytical skills.
 
If everything I say is truly just offensive and dickish, please, you can just mute me from chat whilst i continue to just do my own thing, and if I did offend anyone for whatever I have said, I am apologising once again for what I have said. I never mean anyone any harm ever.

With this reply I do not want to make it sound like I am playing the victim card and that everyone is wrong and only i am the one who is right. It is not the case. I have made a mistake in that evening where i flamed a little and made a joke in poor taste, in which I have apologised for before i got banned and during this ban appeal. I am, however, stating that I feel that this response is a rushed attempt in just trying to say "no I just don't like you as a person and you're just wasting my time". The quote you have used from my ban appeal is so cherry picked, as for the small phrase of a quote that you have quoted me from the whole conversations that ensued the evening I got banned was but a mere 5 words; definitely NOT enough to show poetically how I only want to be a childish "dick" that just wants to flame and cause everyone offense for just existing. That analysis is just a bit off especially with just that as a quote.

I know the tactic used in ban appeals is to try to roast someone to oblivion to make them feel guilty and cry and belittle them as much as possible so that if they reply to the thread, it can only be almost a beg to come back to the server. I certainly felt that last time and deservingly so too. However this time it is not so much. Maybe the next reply will show how much of a c***ish childish "dick" i am for everyone to see so that i submit, but for now, I really don't see what I can do more to make it show that I am not the person that is pictured in your head.